Drained

I feel so drained.

I started this new job, but as soon as I started I felt weird. My body was revolting! My inner voice was like, “what the hell am I doing here??”

I’ve got to say though that most of my coworkers are nice to me. Of course I feel bad about quitting.

But everytime I came home and my Dad asks me “How’s work?”, I shake my head and have this apologetic smile.

I’ve always been like, I gotta do this job because I need to help my family plus I really want to clear my debt this year, and I just started. I know that I want to do art but I feel scared about ending up being homeless.

At the end of the day, it’s still my life and my happiness is my responsibility. If I stay thinking that I’m doing it to “help”, or I don’t want to let people down, later on in my life I’ll most likely end up resenting them.

Ah. There’s gotta be a way. 

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Sobrang pagod ako ngayon. Parati kong iniisip na, kailangan ko ng matinong trabaho hindi lang puro pag-dodrowing, kasi kailangan ng pera pambayad sa gastusin atbp. Ahh. Siguro naman may paraan din no?!
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今日はすごく疲れました。なんかいつも私は、アートだけではなく、仕事も必要だ用途思ってました。失敗ホームレスになってしまうのが心配なのです。どうか、解決が必ずある!!

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I drew an aircraft!

(WiP?) “Sketch of a PBY-6A”
I never thought I’d do it but I enjoyed drawing this while listening to Dolly Parton (“Jolene, Joleeeene!”)😍
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I was flipping through an aircraft magazine and first thing I noticed was its boat-like shape and huge propellers. It’s described as an “amphibious” aircraft that can land on land or water. The wheels can actually fold into the sides!
「進行中?」「PBY-6Aのデッサン」
初めてこの飛行機を描いたんですけど、ドリー•パートンの「ジョリーン」を聴きながら意外と楽しかったです!

航空機の雑誌でこれを見つけました。PBY-6Aは海上にも着陸が出来るそうです。
Ngayon lang akong nakaguhit ng ganitong subject pero nakakatuwa pala, habang nakikinig sa awitin ni Dolly Parton 😆 Ayon sa magasin na nabasa ko, itong PBY-6A ay kaya raw lumanding maging sa lupa man o karagatan.

Urban sketches

“Urban sketches”
That time I went downtown to try to actually paint people! If you’ve never been to Hawaii, here’s a glimpse of Honolulu besides the ocean and palm trees and all that.

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「街でのスケッチ」
この前わたしはホノルルに行って色んな人をかきました。

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“Sketch sa Siyudad”
Nitong nakaraang araw, pumunta ako sa siyudad para subukang magpinta ng iba’t-ibang tao.

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A Day in the Life

A day in the life, waiting at the bus stop.
Every 4:30pm.
The sun is still strong, it causes me a headache sometimes.

That is my life now.

When I was in high school, I thought my life would always be the same.

今日もバス停で…
いつもの午後4時半。
時々お日様は眩しくて、頭が痛くなります。

それは今の私の日常生活です。

わたしは高校生の時、日々が変わらないと思いました。
Isang araw, sa hintayan ng bus.
Kada alas-kwatro y media
Minsan sa sobrang silaw ng araw, sumasakit ang ulo ko.

Ito ang aking ngayon.

Noong ako’y nasa hayskul, akala ko’y parating ganoon ang buhay ko.

12 Zodiacs: ARIES

Hey guys! I’m excited to announce my watercolour project “12 Zodiacs“!

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Over the next days I’ll feature each sign plus a bit of their typical traits. Know more? Comment below!

ARIES♈: March 21 – April 19. 🔥sign.
The GOOD: Takes initiative – a natural LEADER. Keeps it real 💯% . Honest. Risk-taker. Adventurous. The BAD: Loses patience in slow projects and people. Quick temper.

Wanna buy a print? https://www.etsy.com/HappyWackyAnimals/listing/691977478/12-zodiacs-aries-m?

今回は水彩画プロジェクト「12星座」を開始します! 今日から星座を一つずつ描き、そして少しでもよく言われる特徴も紹介します。是非、お楽しみにして下さい。

牡羊座: 3月21日~4月19日
プラス: 率先垂範、誠実、冒険心
マイナス: 気が短い

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Any Aries people in the house? 🐏
牡羊座の人いませんか? ♈
Mayron bang Aries dito?