Blog post #1

Rain. Watercolour 15.2x22.9cm
Rain. Watercolour 15.2×22.9cm “And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time I want what’s yours and I want what’s mine I want you But I’m now giving in this time.” -Michelle Branch ‘Goodbye to You’

Shit, I don’t even know what I’m gonna talk about.

Right, let’s talk about who I am, and where I am at this point. Do people still even read blogs anymore?

Ok. So. My name is Rose. I was born and raised in Manila, Philippines until I was 18. My mom passed away due to an illness, so my brother and I had to move with our Dad to Hawaii. So this is where I’m at.

I love to draw. And I love listening to and creating music. And I wish that this is what I do all the time. I’m trying to make that into a reality. Right now, I’m working full-time at my job. Sometimes there are things at that work that I don’t like, but I don’t hate it. Actually, I’m grateful that I have it, because it allows me to pay the bills and buy what I want and need, like brushes and inks and music gear.

I work at a card game store, and I have a coworker who’s really passionate about cards. He knows a lot about the cards, and works hard; I enjoy working with him. He talks a lot about the cards because he’s very enthusiastic about his hobby.

I wanna be like that too!

I want to live my passion!

So what is my goal really, here? I don’t have to be a millionaire. I’m fine with just enough money to pay the bills and be able to help others too.

My dream is to become a great artist, and travel to see my friends. Also:

(in no particular order)

  1. Go to the Philippines to visit the Philippine Eagle Conservation Center
  2. Plant trees
  3. Make good music!

My hope is that, by sharing my story, my truth, that someone – somebody out there, will feel that they are not alone, that someone shares their struggle, in some way reading my blog helped make them feel better and not give up on their dream. I hope this can be a positive influence on someone’s life.


 

Rain. Watercolour 15.2x22.9cm
雨。水彩画 15.2×22.9cm 「全てを求めたり、何も求めなかったりを同時にするのは辛い
あなたのものが欲しいし、自分のものも欲しい
あなたを失いたくない
でも今回は負けない
http://www.chachachambo.com/entry/goodbye-to-you

ヤバい、何の話をするか分かんなーい。

さーて、自分のことばっかりなんですが、お話をさせて頂きます。今でもブロッグそのものを読む人はまだいるかな?

私はローズと言います。フィリピンのマニラ市で生まれ育ちました。私は18歳の頃、母が重病からなくなったので ハワイに引っ越すことになりました。現在はハワイ在住です。

趣味は絵を描くことです。それと、音楽を聴いたり作曲したりすることです。そういう風に日々を過ごせたらいいなあと思い、その夢を叶うために努力しています。私は普通に会社に通ってます。時々会社で自分にとって好きじゃないことが起きてるけど、仕事のことがイヤな訳ではない。実は仕事のおかげで必要なものや絵具、楽器も買うことが出来るので有難く感謝しています。

私はカードゲーム会社で働き、そこにカードゲーム愛好者の同僚 がいます。本人はカードについて知識豊富で、頼りに出来て良い同僚です。彼はカードに興味深くて楽しく話しそうしてるのです。

わたしも彼のように趣味のことを楽しく話したい!

自分が好きなことをしたい!自分らしく生きたい!

で、わたしの目的は?お金持ちになることではない。お金なら、生活費や他人をたすける為のお金ならへいき。

私の夢はとっても上手なアーティストになり, 友達と遊ぶためにその国に行くことです。尚:

(順番なし)

  1. フィリピンにあるフィリピンワシの保護センターに行き
  2. 木を植え
  3. 作曲プロジェクト!

このブロッグを通して世界にいる誰かがたすけられ、「わたしは一人じゃない」と感じさせて頂きたいと望んでいます。人生の中で辛いことがあっても、自分に信じて夢が叶えるように頑張ろうと思わせていただきたいです。

3 thoughts on “Blog post #1”

  1. Hey Rose, I love that you started blogging again and I hope that you keep it up! Thank you for a nice intro about yourself and giving us a sneak peek into your life and ponderings. I can relate with you regarding passion; wanting to really immerse yourself in your passion and be dedicated and hard-working at it. For me, sometimes I have ‘too many’ things I’m interested in so I don’t know where to focus. I’m also easily distracted, like I’ll watch a video and draw at the same time and suddenly halt my drawing just to concentrate on the video. I also feel like I go ‘all-in’ with an interest; I have a hard time juggling interests and tend to tunnel vision a particular one for quite some time and just about solely focus on that one, putting the rest on the backburner. Like lately for pretty much the past 3 years I’ve been focusing on fanart for my current favorite video game and haven’t drawn much else. I’m driven to improve that particular area of skill, sure, but I feel like I should focus on other subjects more often. I’m also very critical of my art and am determined af to get it looking like the pros’ work… but it’s taking some time. And I need to accept that. Accept that I can’t rush things as impatient as I get. But I at least stick to my guns, drawing things I truly love and feel like drawing. I’d never sell out by drawing the popular stuff. I can suggest for now to just do what makes you happy, and understand that yes, that muse may be on hiatus right now but it will come back! Perhaps you can immerse yourself in new things, try to broaden your horizons with different media (TV, movies, games, etc.), or even look at work done by other artists whose style you like. I feel that, although I get insanely jealous of those ‘pros’, it still inspires me and gives me an ideal to strive for. My favorite songs also always put me in a great mood. I hope you feel that ‘mojo’ return in better force soon!

    Sorry that was all so rambly lol.

    Btw, I believe I remember that song you mentioned! It’s a nice one! That’s a very pretty drawing as well, I love watercolor 🙂 I like that soft pink in the hair~

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  2. Hey Rose, I love that you started blogging again and I hope that you keep it up! Thank you for a nice intro about yourself and giving us a sneak peek into your life and ponderings. I can relate with you regarding passion; wanting to really immerse yourself in your passion and be dedicated and hard-working at it. For me, sometimes I have ‘too many’ things I’m interested in so I don’t know where to focus. I’m also easily distracted, like I’ll watch a video and draw at the same time and suddenly halt my drawing just to concentrate on the video. I also feel like I go ‘all-in’ with an interest; I have a hard time juggling interests and tend to tunnel vision a particular one for quite some time and just about solely focus on that one, putting the rest on the backburner. Like lately for pretty much the past 3 years I’ve been focusing on fanart for my current favorite video game and haven’t drawn much else. I’m driven to improve that particular area of skill, sure, but I feel like I should focus on other subjects more often. I’m also very critical of my art and am determined af to get it looking like the pros’ work… but it’s taking some time. And I need to accept that. Accept that I can’t rush things as impatient as I get. But I at least stick to my guns, drawing things I truly love and feel like drawing. I’d never sell out by drawing the popular stuff. I can suggest for now to just do what makes you happy, and understand that yes, that muse may be on hiatus right now but it will come back! Perhaps you can immerse yourself in new things, try to broaden your horizons with different media (TV, movies, games, etc.), or even look at work done by other artists whose style you like. I feel that, although I get insanely jealous of those ‘pros’, it still inspires me and gives me an ideal to strive for. My favorite songs also always put me in a great mood. I hope you feel that ‘mojo’ return in better force soon!

    Sorry that was all so rambly lol.

    Btw, I believe I remember that song you mentioned! It’s a nice one! That’s a very pretty drawing as well, I love watercolor 🙂 I like that soft pink in the hair~

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    1. Hey Steph thank you so much and sorry for the late reply. Totally agree with youon expanding my horizons, and last time when we met up you told me not to think that I’m wasting my time if I’m drawing or, say, watching a movie or playing a videogame because it helps with the creative process. For the longest time I’ve been hounded by that negative thought, which really blocked me creatively and made me feel anxious and depressed. Thank you so much for being my friend and just for being all-out supportive.

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